"O God, you know how foolish I am; my sins cannot be hidden from you."-Psalm 69:5
Sometimes when we hide, we find ourselves in the most dangerous place.
On the day after the 4th of July I went for my routine jog near my house. While on the trail that makes up miles 2 and 3 I noticed a few spent fireworks littering the trail. Oh it made me think.
"What kind of crazy person would come back here on these trails with all of the flammable dead brush around to catch fire?"
I know what kind of person.
A person in hiding.
In the county of San Diego it is illegal to light fireworks. It is illegal to even sell them, yet people get a hold of them either by heading out to the desert or across the border into Mexico and buying them where it is legal. Once they are back home with their newly acquired prohibited substance they find themselves with a dilemma, where can they use them? Wanting to avoid huge fines and jail time, they head out to places that are hidden and obscure.
This made me think for the rest of the run. It seems that when we attempt to hide our wrongdoings and do them in secret we find ourselves in extremely dangerous places or situations.
Sexual sin trying to remain hidden might find you in a place where you risk your life through disease.
Substance abuse kept in secret might find you overdosing without someone nearby to save you.
Trying to hide wrongdoings from a friend or loved one may find you destroying a relationship with someone who is dear to you.
Attempting to hide financial sin (greed or gluttony) can lead to bankruptcy or the dissolution of marriages and families.
Sometimes there seems to be no other option but to try to hide. Even Adam and Eve tried to hide. But surely if we step back and weigh the burden of our guilt against the burden of coming out into the open we would see that the guilt carrying and danger or perils of the hidden places are so much greater than truth telling. Because in truth, nothing is ever truly hidden. Just as this verse states, our sins are not hidden from our Savior and maybe once we realize this we will begin to confess what He already knows and find relief.
Psalm 32:1-5 1 Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight! 2 Yes, what joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt,[b] whose lives are lived in complete honesty! 3 When I refused to confess my sin, my body wasted away, and I groaned all day long. 4 Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me. My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat.
5 Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone.
Oh to have the relief of our guilt being gone. I wrote about these verses last year in a blog called "The Hit And Run..." and still find myself reminded of how we waste away when we try to keep silent in our sins. But with those first words of confession I can imagine great burden filled bags dropping from our shoulders, back, shaking arms and weary fingers.
Then, once the great heft of our sin/guilt is relieved, hopefully, we will be more hesitant to find ourselves picking it back up, shrugging it onto our shoulders.
Next time we will find ourselves not only wanting to avoid the stress of creeping off hiding with it but also avoid the sin of grabbing hold of it in the first place. We would release our grip on this foolishness, thereby releasing it's grip on us.
So put the matches back in your pocket and take those fireworks back to Mexico...
(This is my newest blog in a weekly series where I share my thoughts behind some of my favorite scriptures out of the bible. If you want to see why I've started this weekly undertaking you can go back and read my blog called "Pirates And Their Knots...")