A while back we shifted my daughter from a crib to a "big girl bed" (AKA twin bed). Along with the move came a new bedtime routine.
#1. My daughter gets to put herself to bed (she actually crawls into it herself)
#2. I can crawl in and lay down beside her (not possible in the crib)
#3. I sit alongside her every night and read a story to her before leaving her to fall asleep (usually "The Cat In The Hat" her favorite which she almost has memorized and frequently "reads" to me)
#4. We snuggle.
#5. The light gets turned off and I kneel by the bed as I pray for her and she chooses someone to pray for.
#6. Then I kiss her forehead or cheek or shoulder or neck, maybe all four, as I breathe her soft scent in and tell her goodnight as I leave the room.
The other night, though, I was distracted and went to leave the room without praying for her. She loudly called out "Mommy! I want you to pray to me!"
I smiled and quickly went to her bedside telling her I was sorry I had forgotten and started to correct her, saying "It's pray FOR you not pray TO you."
After I left her room this thought lingered in my mind as I walked downstairs and into my living room for some downtime before heading up to bed myself.
When is the transition?
How do I teach her?
How do I make real the very thing that people are fighting against hand and foot, night and day?
How do I show importance and need and life and rescue without it coming across as routine, lifeless, manipulation or hypocrisy?
What life do I lead, as her parent, and as a human on this planet among other humans that breathes and expresses and exhales a real genuine hope for the perfection of our lives through our Savior, Jesus?
Today, as well as everyday, I sit with these thoughts cradling my head. When will her prayer turn from "pray to me" to "pray for me" because she finally knows the value of prayer and of a God worth praying to?
"You will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you. Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me [as a vital necessity] and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord...." -Jeremiah 29:12-14
My prayer for her is that she will have a deeply planted knowledge of this verse at an early age so that her life will be one that is lived as one that has found the Lord.
I know so many people who are grown and are still praying with the immaturity of my 2 year old and I wonder if it is because they don't know this verse and the promise it holds.
Call to Him Come and pray to Him Seek Him Inquire for Him Require Him as a vital necessity Search for Him with ALL our heart
once our whole heart is engrossed in the Messiah hunt...
then He will be found by us.
Our prayer is for the searching of Him and if we come only armed with thoughts of ourselves, bits of our hearts but not all, covered with a shroud of manipulation or hypocrisy then He knows, we have not come searching for Him, we are still calling out with our small immature minds of prayer,
"Pray to ME."
What is the state of your prayer life right now? Is your whole heart involved or is it just a bit that you've sectioned off to do the "spiritual" things? Or the part you've decided you can spare in your busy life?
If it is the finding Him that you want, then the whole heart is what is required.
Lord, help my heart seek you completely, wholly, fully, thoroughly, absolutely, solely.