Going Backwards...

As it nears the new year many people are looking forward into the next year and are either making lists of resolutions, or things they will be better at, or things they won't give in to, or things they will accomplish. People are also feeling encouraged, discouraged, hopeful, disillusioned, relieved, anxious, etc. The future is a slow moving freight train that seems as though it has no conductor. It will not stop and you can't control it. One day you will be thinking that the millennium is far away in the future, the next day you will look back and see that you celebrated the millennium now 11 years ago and on and on we go. Years come and go. Days pass despite our grasping to slow them or stop them. So what am I doing these final hours of 2010? I'm looking backwards. I have written in the past about working towards an envisioned future in my blog called "He Makes All Things Right...." I wrote about trying to build what I thought my future should look like and how, so many times I've watched it crumble. It's in these ruins of future plans that I glance back to see hope. As each year passes I can see that I am still here. My heart still beating. Clothes still on my back. Laughter still in my chest. Love/Life still pumping though my veins. How is it, when everything I thought should be is dust blown away with time, that I can smile relieved that my life is as it should be? And the next year will be what is best for me? I look at the word "Faithful."

1. Faithfulness- Steadfast in affection or allegiance: Loyal. Firm in adherence to promises. Full of faith.

2. Faithfulness is something we see proven in the past.

3. Psalm 145: 17 The LORD is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does. 18 The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. 19 He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them. 20 The LORD watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. 21 My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever.

So this year instead of making a mental list of things that I will be doing(these mental lists always get lost and are unreliable anyway) I am going to get out my journal and make an actual written list of God's faithfulness to me this past year. This list will be my hope for the future. I have a Father in heaven who is loyal to me and sticks to His promises to me. These promises that I can find overflowing my thin black bible into my heart each and every time I read it. He is faithful in all He does and because of this I will praise Him. This is my mind for the new year. I can't wait till I'm looking backwards and writing my faithfulness list in my journal on the eve of 2012. It almost makes me want to run and jump fearless and with abandon into this next year...well why not? Let's do it.

Joshua 1:5 "I will not leave you nor forsake you."

Posted on December 30, 2010 and filed under Anything and Everything.